Most of us in the Sonship light have come a long way from day one.
We have been as Jacob when his brother Esau led him into the land of Seir, and Jacob said, "My Lord know that the children are tender, and the flocks and herds are with young and if they are over driven just one day they will all die" We, too, started out on this journey as tender children, brought up on the milk-diet of the mother church, our 'flocks' also have been 'with youn' and unable to travel unattended. But our precious 'shepherd' has led us gently in full understanding of our ignorance and our weakness. How very precious He has become on this awesome journey.
Day one was when we learned that we no longer had a place inside the walls of the church building we had loved and grown up in. I remember how lonely I felt and how I cried during the exit from servanthood into the domain of Sonship, because I was leaving the old familiar landmarks of my spiritual childhood, taking my first step into spiritual adolescence on my journey out into His glorious image!
It is here in day one that we learn to walk in the reality of Psalms 55:12. We find that it is not an enemy that reproached and hated us, but it was one of mine own acquaintance who once walked with me in 'sweet communion' that now plot against me; we took sweet counsel together and walked together into the house of the Lord...'. Psalms 41:9 Yea, mine own familiar friend, in whom I trusted, which did eat of my bread, hath lifted up his heel against me.'
I was like a baby being weaned from the bottle, and also my 'security blanket' let's not forget that! The security of being pampered with 'gifts' and 'anointing,' the miracle of instant healings as He soothed our hurts and carried us as babes who cannot walk or speak fluently. There was a sweet security of familiar surroundings and fellowship as we 'set up camp' and danced around our 'golden image' our traditional 'manna' which had served its purpose and was, now on this sixth day, breeding worms of corruption. The Lord was calling me out into the sixth day of a double portion where the manna became incorruptible. He was calling me to the mountaintop as He did Moses, to enter into the glory of His presence. Surely the time had come to 'move out' into higher pasture, time had come to 'eat the Passover and make the exodus.' What awesome visions the Lord brought to me at this time!
When he calls us out for a time we will feel lonely and empty because the 'former things' are passing away and all things are 'becoming' new!
I had nowhere to lay my head! My security blanket was gone! And the awesome visions from the Lord were so gloriously awesome I could only cry out, "Lord! Where are you taking me?"
The people who had once 'placed me on the honor roll' no longer wanted me in their midst. I no longer spoke the same word; my mannerism had changed to the likeness of another. I became a stranger and stood among them as one they knew not! This was my first experience to stand in His image! Praise God! I have learned to love that Son-image, it has become my resting place.
You see, I did not know where God was taking me. I had never heard the word "Sonship" until I heard it spoken in the spirit. And even though I was in a state of euphoria from the wonders of it all, yet I also felt alone and rejected at times, because of the strangeness of it all. You see, there is a great difference in 'knowing about Him' and 'following after Him compared to being a "joint-heir' with Him in His death and resurrection; being flesh of His flesh and bone of His bones to the point of bearing His death in my body!! It is here that we come into the knowledge of 'being transformed out of darknnss into the kingdom of the Son of God!' The light here is blinding to say the least. It is the same light which struck the apostle Paul down on the Damascus road and blinded him to every thing he had ever known for three days! Hon-ya-som-mah! Glory to His name!
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